I wanted to share a bit about my life with you + my practice of presence.
Three years ago I had been fighting, resisting, and often times hating this small town that I live in. I had thought there was no way this was meant to be. I only saw the lack of what was available to me. No whole foods. No target. No cute craftsman style homes. No retro coffee shops with people in weird glasses. No fancy salons. No yoga studio. No restaurants. No colleges with the degree I wanted. You get where I am going with this. All the things I was COMFORTABLE with were no longer available to me. I couldn’t see anything other than what I had before. I couldn’t appreciate what was in front of me. I couldn’t see the gift.
Well, more I chose not to. Life is so much about perspective and the lens we choose to see out of.
About a year into this small town life I began meditating and getting really into yoga. Before, when I lived in the big city I talked about yoga a lot, but I rarely practiced it. Imagine that. ;) All of the sudden I had this huge shift…of holy. freaking. cow. this small town is the best gift I could have ever received. In this town, I have the ability to stay at home with my kids, which was always on my MUST HAVE desire list. I have the same country lifestyle that I grew up with that I now get to share with my kids. It gave me peace and space to find who I was again after going through a traumatic couple of years with my husband in the hospital. It gave me a reconnection with my family whom I had missed dearly. It gave me the ability to gain awareness of my thoughts, my dreams and my resistance.
Without this town I wouldn’t be here sharing the gift of yoga + meditation with you because I wouldn’t have had the time and means to study it so intensely.
I want to invite you to explore areas of your life that you might be resisting and see if there is a new perspective you can try on.
You see, in life we often resist what is best for us because we don’t know how its going to turn out. For me, I felt trapped and invisible and really…slightly embarrassed of this small town because I chose to see its lack. I was pissed off it didn’t have what I “thought” I needed. When in reality it had everything that I needed.
We must get comfortable being uncomfortable because every moment is a new moment to transform to a better version of you. This is why I share so much about yoga and meditation. They give the gift of awareness. The gift of presence. The gift of neutrality. The gift of power.
In my yoga teacher training there was a saying to become “unmessablewith”. This term means to not let your world be rocked by the opinions of others or when life throws you curve balls. It means that YES life is going to happen. Life might be messy. Life might not go where you want it to AND that life is here for YOU. You have the power within you to remain happy and in a constant state of love no matter what.
From this experience, I have chosen to fall deeply in love with trusting the process. I am becoming quite fond of the magic that happens when I don’t try to control the outcome. I love what happens when I say YES even when I am really scared or uncomfortable to try something new. I have yet to hate what happens after saying that beautiful word, YES.
What can you say YES to today?
You are ready now and you know what to do.
Trust the process.
I hope this inspired you to try on something new and explore the endless possibilities within your life….and if you don’t do yoga or meditate…maybe you can try that too!